Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Resting in His Word

It has been a whole week since we said goodbye to the little one I was carrying.  Recovery has been slow.  Besides dealing with grief, I was suffering with terrible headaches and exhaustion.  The headaches are subsiding, but I find I am still very tired.  I know to expect this, but it's still difficult when I'm used to bouncing back and managing the household.  My husband and older children have been doing most of the tasks and I am thankful for their help.  It's not easy for them.  The little ones don't get as much "Mommy" time as they are used to getting, so sometimes, they misbehave just a little more.  My husband has to keep up with things from work and still is making sure I am cared for and the house is running smoothly. 

I rest mostly, but I have been trying to get up and around more, setting small goals for each day.  I plan at least once a day to walk to my flower gardens or check the mail.  Yesterday, I threw the ball back and forth with our dog.  Annie was a bit surprised when I quit only a few minutes into our game.  I will sit and fold socks, get up to throw a load of laundry into the dryer or make my way to the living room to read to the children.  Today, I may iron a shirt or two.  Or maybe not.  Writing helps me a great deal, but I am so thankful for the times in the Word most of all.  That communion with my Heavenly Father is sweet and healing.  I desire that these times in His Word will continue.  Even when I'm back to my busy schedule again, I want to remember how much I need to hear from Him.  It was His Word that gave me the strength and the peace to get through our recent struggle and it is His Word that reminds me to rejoice every day.  I need His direction.  I need to seek Him when I'm planning my lessons, when I am correcting a child, when I am performing a mundane task or when I am dealing with doubt and fear.  God is so good and so loving.  I am thankful for His Word that cements this truth into my heart. 

"O how I love Your law!  It is my meditation all the day."  Psalm 119:97

1 comment:

sweetly broken said...

Dawn, so sorry for your dear loss. God is near to the brokenhearted...and surely you are right now. May He fill you with the knowledge of his love and assurance of the hope to come! Blessings, my sister homeschool mom!

Love, Kristin Bunting