Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Fudge, Tea, Endless Thoughts and Waiting on God


The title pretty much explains my life right now. Endless thoughts. They really don't seem to take a break, except maybe when I'm sleeping, but even then, I dream about either the things I've done or the many things I have to cross off my to-do list.

A cup of tea. A necessity. Tea helps me to take at least a few minutes to sit and relax. When I have my cup at night after the kids are in bed, I don't have to continue to warm it in the microwave because I was interrupted countless times or to gulp it down in a hurry. I like to savor tea and yet drink it while it's still hot.

A very small piece of fudge. We've been changing the way we eat snacks around here. Instead of reaching for cookies or other junk food between meals, we have actually been choosing better alternatives. For many years, I was careful to choose healthy snacks, but became a little lazy in recent times. Well, not anymore. Except a little yesterday and this afternoon, oh and tonight! I just had to have a little with my tea!

Life in our home is always quite interesting. Busy, loud, frustrating, a bit chaotic at times, and yet, even in the midst of it all, God is there. He is the peace in the middle of the storm. He loves even when I don't show my love for Him. There are those days, more than I'd like to admit when I've complained, wanted to quit,(just for a couple of hours), missed my quiet time with Him, or was unloving to one of my children and yet He is still there, waiting for me and loving me. How thankful I am that He loves me. That's better than a cup of tea. That's even better than that piece of fudge I shouldn't eat. And those endless thoughts? Yes, I admit, many of those thoughts are worries that need to be given to Him. A bit of Philippians 4 could go a long way. Instead of worrying about laundry, dishes, picking up, cooking meals, making sure the baby gets to sleep, finishing the curriculum, dealing with a stubborn toddler, making a child understand consequences or even combing my hair, I can remember this:
"Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise,dwell on these things",(Phil.4:8).

This takes training and it isn't a training that comes easy. It's easy to just do the things we are used to doing. It's easy to coddle our sin nature. It's not easy to turn from it and to go to God's Word and live it. But, I must. If I say that I love Him, I must obey His Word. I must train this mind to think on the things of God. There are times I don't even have the desire to follow Him. It's then that I ask Him to fill me with the desire to want Him and only Him. Even when the words do not come, He knows what I need. I may see a difference right away or I may wait. More often than not, I find that I'm waiting, not always patiently,(let's take it one step at a time), but I am waiting. While I wait on Him, I will pray. I will meditate on the truth of His Word. I will praise Him. I will continue to raise my children to love Him. I will load the dishwasher. I will wash the clothes. I will sit and read with my toddlers. I will build block towers. I will diagram sentences and work word problems with my older children. I will rock the baby to sleep. I will continue to do the things that need to be done and I will wait on the Lord.

While I Am Waiting (John Waller)

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord