It's been a while since I posted any thoughts or the many happenings in my busy life, so I thought I would share a few things before turning into bed. I am very thankful that the contractions I was having last month have stopped. My very round tummy keeps growing and the little one inside is quite lively these days, but both are reminders of God's blessing and goodness. It is such a wonderful thing to carry a new life. Yes, with each pregnancy, I grow weary. My back hurts, sometimes quite a bit. Walking has gotten harder. I tend to be out of breath after the simplest tasks, but the Lord continues to remind me that He is there, sustaining me and providing for my needs. All of the aches, the tiredness, and even the forgetfulness is worth it, not only when the baby arrives, but it's worth it even in the midst of it all. The reason? Because even when I feel the pain and the exhaustion, that each day feels like it's dragging along or when I feel I am at the end of myself, God moves. If I am not dying to myself daily, I don't see His life in me. I don't learn the things He wants to show me. You see, I never need to despair. Even when things get really bad, God is walking with me, instructing me, perhaps, even whispering of His love and His purpose for me. He is my very life. Am I willing to give Him the glory no matter what each day brings? Is the joy of the Lord my strength,(Nehemiah 8:10)? Am I purposefully living in a way that pleases my Savior? It is much easier to feel crushed or to despair. Much easier to feel sorry for myself and to complain, but I must choose to look up and walk in His truth. Even when things don't make sense. I'm on the underside of the tapestry, looking at all of the tangled threads some days, but God sees the beautiful picture on the other side. I must trust Him with each new day, each moment, each pain or disappointment because one day, I will look at the beautiful picture with Him. So today, I am going to remember:
We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body. So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.
It is written: “I believed; therefore I have spoken.” With that same spirit of faith we also believe and therefore speak, because we know that the one who raised the Lord Jesus from the dead will also raise us with Jesus and present us with you in his presence. All this is for your benefit, so that the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of God.
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
II Corinthians 4:8-18
II Corinthians 4:8-18