Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Resting at the Feet of Jesus

Here we are in the middle of July, temperatures soaring and it doesn't look like it's going to let up anytime soon. I am so thankful for air conditioning, but the power was flickering on and off throughout the day yesterday and today at 5:30, we woke up to a broken A/C. I'm praying that I can make it until our repairman shows up in a few hours as this very tired, expectant mother needs a cooler house.

These days remind me of summers in the past. My children love to hear the stories from my childhood when we had no A/C. My sister and I slept in our attic. Wow, now that was hot! Dad would run the fan in an open window and try to bring in the cooler air in the evenings, but we usually ended up on top of the covers with our heads at the foot of the beds. Sometimes, we slept downstairs in our breezeway and if we were able to coax our Dad enough, he'd set up the two-man tent in the backyard. Our brother would join us. We enjoyed that adventure and definitely slept better outside.

During those hot days, we looked forward to the ice cream truck that would drive by our house from time to time or we'd simply grab a Popsicle from the freezer. Occasionally, we'd run through the sprinkler or play in the cool basement. Sometimes, Mom would suggest a walk to the library just down the street where there was A/C and as we walked, we loved to pop tar bubbles with our shoes the whole way down the street. Some days seemed unbearable, but we made it through.

It was a little easier to deal with the heat back then. Being seven months pregnant in this heat is a different experience, but I just have to remember to take it easy and let some things go. I've had to learn about letting go and allowing myself extra rest this week. We've had a rough couple of weeks with a dog getting sprayed by a skunk, the 2 yr. old getting sick and the 1 yr. old cutting molars. Add on the heat and life gets interesting. At the beginning of the week, I thought I was in premature labor. I'm not quite at 30 weeks yet, so this is a bit early to be starting that. Thankfully, the midwife said everything was checking out fine, but that I needed to take it easier and keep hydrated. After asking for prayer this week, I've had an outpouring of help from our home school support group and church. Offers of baby-sitting, house cleaning, and meals have been coming in and I so appreciate these special families.

So, resting is what I'm doing although many times, when I'm feeling a little better, I'm tempted to be a Martha and to dive back into my work. Then, the contractions return and I'm reminded to put up those feet of mine and rest. If I had lived in Jesus' day and He came to my house for a visit, I probably would have tended to be busy, perhaps stopping to hear Him talk, but always busy. Fluffing the pillows around Him, picking up the things on the floor, washing the dishes, fussing over where He should sit and, of course, complaining that I was the only one doing the work. Jesus desired to encourage and instruct those that were listening to Him. He didn't put a lot of stock in how clean a house was or what He would be served for dinner. Mary desired to listen and to learn from her Lord and realized what would last for eternity. Not a clean house, but a pure heart.

"Now as they were traveling along, He entered a village; and a woman named Martha welcomed Him into her home. She had a sister called Mary, who was seated at the Lord's feet, listening to His word. But Martha was distracted with all her preparations; and she came up to Him and said, 'Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me to do all the serving alone? Then tell her to help me.' But the Lord answered and said to her, "Martha, Martha, you are worried and bothered about so many things; but only one thing is necessary, for Mary has chosen the good part, which shall not be taken away from her.'" Luke 10:38-42

I wonder if I really know how to rest. Even when I do take a break physically, have I learned to rest in the Lord? Am I willing to be quiet and listen to the Teacher or am I so busy that I crowd out any words from Him? My feet may be up, but my mind is racing a mile a minute, thinking about all I have to do, all the unfinished projects, the kids' lessons, or worrying about the little one I'm carrying. My prayer is that I can rest at His feet and obey Him by not worrying. My life is in His hands and no amount of worrying or fussing will change that. All it does is make me miserable and it is a poor example to my children. If we would learn to rest at His feet, think of all we could learn. He promises to never leave us and He promises to restore our souls.

So, with feet up, a glass of ice water beside me, my Bible opened and a heart quiet before Him, I'm going to follow my Shepherd and rest at His feet today.

"He makes me lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside quiet waters. He restores my soul; He guides me in the paths of righteousness for His names' sake." Psalm 23:2-3

Saturday, July 2, 2011

"If I Speak with the Tongues of Men and of Angels"

Several years ago, I had the opportunity of meeting and communicating by letter with a missionary by the name of Helen Constance. She was a missionary who served alongside her husband, George with the Christian and Missionary Alliance for many years beginning in 1935. They served in Colombia and faced many hardships and joys during that time. In her book, "Stepping Out on Faith", she included many of the poems she wrote describing missionary life and the various people they encountered. I would like to share one of her poems. It tells of an Indian that George and Helen met along the Amazon River and the terrible atrocities that he and his people endured when the "white man" came to their part of the world in search of rubber at the advent of the motor car.

Good-Bye Forever

The sun was sinking in the west
And the afternoon shadows fell
On the face of an old, old Indian
A century had marked so well.

He sat by his bamboo cottage
And thought of the years gone by-
Years he wished he could forget
As he waited now to die.

He lifted his eyes to the river
as he heard the familiar roar
Of another outboard motor
That would pass close by his door.

The roar of those noisy motors
He wished he never knew.
He loved the sound of dripping paddle
Guiding silently his canoe.

A dugout with outboard motor
Stopped near the old man's door
And he watched with apprehension
As a white man cam ashore.

He did respond as the stranger
Waved in a friendly way;
When the man drew near, the Indian
Had nothing at all to say.

Yes, he understood Spanish,
Though he spoke it brokenly,
But he would not talk with the white man
But sat there stubbornly.

While the white man told about Jesus
and how He had come to die
That the Indian might have eternal life
In a home beyond the sky.

He shook his head as the white man
Told of Christ's death for sin
And how God could change a wicked life
And put love and peace within.

And then, with frustration and anger
The Indian spoke at last;
He said he did not believe it
And could prove it false from his past.

"Long ago," he said, "in the forest
We were happy, peaceful, free;
With our jungle trails and dugouts,
Our tribe and family.

"But the white man came and enslaved us
And sent us to forest trails
For rubber- as much as he ordered-
Or death to the one who would fail.

"I tried so hard to get plenty,
But my quota I could not fill;
They said the tribe was just lazy
And to teach us, they had to kill.

"So my wife and my sons were beaten
Till the blood on the ground ran red,
And my brother was horribly tortured
Until at last, he was dead.

"And I cannot forget my young daughter-
Just 14 and sweet and shy.
They beat her until she crawled away
To the forest alone to die.

"In the jungle, searching for rubber,
I wanted to take my life,
But they said,'For every dead Indian,
There is torture and death for his wife.'

"When at last the white man departed,
Just a few of the tribe remained-
Disheartened, discouraged, defeated,
Our souls with hatred stained.

"You talk to me about Jesus
And I remember only the boss
Who ordered his men to beat us, yet
He wore on his neck-a cross!

The lash of the horrible bullwhip,
The memory of screams in the night,
and when the torture was over,
To the Virgin they lit a light.

"Every act, every deed of cruelty,
We noted with growing despair,
Ended by making the sign of the cross-
'Twas the symbol they used in prayer.

"White man, don't talk to me of a cross,
Don't tell me it takes away sin,
For the scars I bear on my body
Prove the cross makes beasts of men.

"And love-did you speak to me of love?
The only love I remember today
Is the love of my tribe and family
Which you and your cross took away!

"Too late, white man, is your message,
Too late this poor soul to save.
I've known only cruelty and hatred,
and with this I go to my grave.

"But look, white man, look up river
And see there is tribe after tribe
Of Indians who never yet have known
This beautiful love you describe.

"You say the wonderful Book you bring
Is just what we Indians need.
But no one has ever cared enough
To teach my people to read.

"Young Indians know my sad story,
But my path they never trod;
So perhaps since their hearts are not bitter
They'll believe in the love of your God.

"Perhaps to the young generation
You might prove that a God above
Sent His Son to die for the Indian
If you show him a cross-of love!

"Good-bye, good-bye, Mr.White Man!
Take your canoe away from my shore.
I'm old and I'm tired of living,
Adios-forever more!"

Helen Constance

When I read this to my children, they were shocked that people could be so evil and still act religious. I related how this wasn't Christianity and we talked about the many instances where men would come to a region, and "convert" the native people, but not without a cost. This kind of "evangelizing" was not out of love, but was born of impure and greedy motives. A conversion or death. Not a very promising prospect. Where was the love of Christ? Did Christ die just so that men could force others to follow some sort of religion or for material gain?

Of course, we automatically recognize these acts as evil and wrong, but on the other hand, are we really living our lives through the love of Christ? Does the world see Christ's love in us or are we simply speaking out against things without showing love for others? Maybe we're just too busy to take the time to care. When was the last time we went out of our way to share the Gospel, to give an encouraging word, to help an older lady at the grocery store, to check on a neighbor in need, or even just to smile at someone? What does the world see when we are out with our children? Do they just see us surviving? Do they witness love between brothers and sisters or constant bickering? Do they see wives respecting their husbands or do they observe complaining or rolling of our eyes when things don't go our way?

What does it look like in our homes? Are we grumbling because there are clothes and books on the floor again? Do we genuinely love that child who is in disobedience? Are we moms so touched out that one more kiss or cuddle from a child makes us want to scream? Do we take the time to listen to that child who is aching to tell us a story or do we tell them that we are too busy? Are we loving our husbands when we complain about our day or when we tirelessly nag him about unfinished jobs?

Yes, loving others can be very difficult, but Jesus commanded that we love. He said the world would know we are Christians by our love. Whether we are overseas missionaries or are ministering here at home, everything we do is to be done through the love of Christ. The fact is that we can do a lot of good. We can lend a helping hand to our neighbor, wash our children's clothes and make one hundred peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. We can stand before a huge audience and talk about the Lord. We can visit the elderly or those in prison. We can stand for life and witness to an unwed mother, but if we do anything without love, it doesn't mean a thing. May our prayer everyday be that we love. And, we can only do that through Christ. If we try to love on our own, then, we really aren't loving. Christ's love is supernatural. It's unconditional. It's sacrificial. It's beyond our comprehension. His love is why we are not consumed. His love is what saved the world. May He love others through us and may the world see the love of Jesus in our lives.

If I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but do not have love, I have become a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy, and know all mysteries and all knowledge; and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. And if I give all my possessions to feed the poor, and if I surrender my body to be burned, but do not have love, it profits me nothing.
Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked,does not take into account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never fails; but if there are gifts of prophecy, they will be done away; if there are tongues, they will cease; if there is knowledge, it will be done away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part; but when the perfect comes, the partial will be done away. When I was a child, I used to speak like a child, think like a child, reason like a child; when I became a man, I did away with childish things. For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face; now I know in part, but then I will know fully just as I also have been fully known. But now faith, hope, love, abide these three; but the greatest of these is love.
I Corinthians 13